The smallest things can take up the largest space.

I'm happy I completed these few things today ;

1. I had sufficient hours of sleep before going off to school for final exam.
2. Answered & filled up my 20 marks essay question with over 600 words.
3. Feeling accomplished because I know I did my best. (Whatever the result is, I hope its good :/)
4. Offered to help my uncle water the plants(At the house entrance. I felt like I just saved lives.)
5. Sat in front of the TV, watched every shows aired on E Channel.
6. Reblogged too many interesting and pretty stuffs from Tumblr, caught up with what I've missed on Bloglovin. (without having to worry about a thing.)
7. Exchanging follow-up texts with Sufi. (frequent teasing = passports to make my day)
8. Religiously applying my facial skin care regime for the past 2 days. (I'm not that consistent when it comes to these things.)
9. Followed by my new favourite lotion, Vaseline healthy white lotion. (I think i've already smeared this on about 3 times today, only? Come on, its an addiction!)
10. Updating my blog. (always been a pleasure)

Its true when they say tiny gestures can mean the most to someone who's willing to receive it. Well, I'm one of them.

Touche

“Once I began a book, I couldn’t put it down. It was like an addiction; I read while I ate, on the train, in bed until late at night, in school, where I’d keep the book hidden so I could read during class. But I had almost no desire to talk with anyone about the experience I gained through books and music. I felt happy just being me and no one else.”

—	Haruki Murakami & I can never go wrong.

I have nothing, if I dont have you.

I love bloggers who have the tendency to update their blog(preferably daily) more frequent than I do, because I dont. lol. Sure I repeat this a thousand times, but I really, personally love reading blogs, because these are the mediums that inspires. I envy perfect lives, wealth, fashion, beauty, but I'll get back to my usual state once Im done gushing about others, which is good, because I know my grounds. Of course there are days I wish these bloggers could talk lesser or more, but all in all, they are so good at expressing themselves. Can you already sense the jealousy in me?

Another thing is, there is certainly something isnt right about my eye-sight these days, poor and blurrish vision is taking over me. Squinting aint cool & I'm not used to donning my geeky black glasses everywhere I go. Guess I have to endure then.

Alright then, back to revising. 1 & a half hour UT tomorrow. I CAN DO THIS!

Song of the day ; I have nothing - Whitney Houston (Jessie J cover).

Feels good.

I started on a good note today. Wasn't late to send Dad off, I got my usual morning texts from the Boy(its always fun to read), Mum called to say she felt better & I shamelessly admitted I prayed for her well-being during prayers last night(thereafter, I thanked Allah & was smiling all to myself ever since), Uncle bought me porridge(too spicy though) and best of all, I woke up early! I mean look at the time, its only 8:34 am! Usually around this time, I would force my legs to rush up the elevator to catch the train. Not today though, exam starts at 2, so I still have some time to SWOT(look, a new word! LOL). I feel a lack of proportion though, I have yet to iron my clothes (never too prissy about what I wear anyway. tsk!), packed my bags, wash my hair .. see, these are the mandatory everyday stuffs I need to fulfill before I feel wholly complete. Sounds a little too much, I think so too.

Okay now I'm feeling sleepy. Whattheheck. Porridge, I blame you! I feel sleepy every time I'm done eating, WHYYYYYY? ):

Am I back?

The urge to blog has haunt me for a few days now. Truth to be told, I kinda miss blogging and expressing my thoughts (even at the tiniest issues). Most probably, the main possible reason to this entry is - I'm at my wits end, trying and working hard to portray my sentiment to those who read, and at the same time perfecting my English (ridiculous thinking there). Seriously, if only i could swiftly convey my thoughts to english words, i'd call myself a genius. I'm nowhere near there of course. Sigh.

Now that aside, I'm suppose to be studying, memorizing, revising, whatever you call it .. but here I am squirming in my seat, blogging. Albeit the fact that I am suppose to get myself ready for exam tomorrow, I'm here spending a wee bit of my time to satisfy my urge. These are the things I'd do to keep the peace in my mind - which includes sacrificing my precious time.

I promised myself this would be a short one. Im in a huff, im annoyed.. is this what coffee does to you? I thought I was suppose to feel the caffeine-rush/excitement? I reckon myself having a hard time sleeping tonight. Oh damn, I just dumped myself in hell.

Your voice.

I think Day 1 went fine, i didnt mourn that much like i predicted i would. just got off the phone with Sufi. minus the fact that each min could cost up to $1, i'd prefer to ignore the latter. besides, a good night talk is all i need, right now. i hope the next 20 days will be just as good, maybe even better.

The weather is totally acceptable, by me. Singapore feels and look good with this kind of weather. not to mention i'd rather be in bed than completing my 2 sets of notes, i have to believe sometimes sleep deprivation can do good. so ill keep myself discipline for next few hours. cept' if only this swivel chair im seating on can be a lil more comfy. grr.

School tomorrow. the usual routine continues. ive saved some sleeping time by preparing earlier; got my clothes ironed (i wish i had perfect-fit boots to go with what i'll be wearing tmr), and my bag packed (i've decided to make full use of the variety of bags i bought on impulse and got chunked aside, feels like ive wasted dollars buying them, so this is the only way to make me feel better).

Im contemplating - should i get to sleep or keep on revising? didnt i just mention i would keep myself disciplined?

i should.

night-dreaming?

I have finally decided to start blogging again. maybe not daily, but .. we'll see.

So its barely Day 1 Sufi left for Australia for army training, and i am already this restless. when i say this, i meant major. but i shall seek positivity because, he's gonna do well, im sure he will. he always does.

The urge to blog these days are highly never there. i'd probably say this a thousand times, but inspirations doesnt come easy. or it does, only when you're day/(night?) dreaming or just by looking at the people around you, or maybe further. so im here back again because the blog follow-ups are just that inspiring that i have to sit down and do something about it. welcome me back. lol. but just an advanced gentle reminder, updates can be real still cos i might be too caught up with school(that's one extremely lame reason) and usually too cooped in my own world(which is bad because i think unnecessarily and mostly at war withmyself).

On the contrary (to my sad intro) .. its a rainy night! what could be better than a good weather? maybe a comfy hug from the one you love, of course, not a question to be asked. see, im contradicting, now & always-.-

I shall burn the midnight oil tonight, no maybe tomorrow. its time to cuddle in bed. this should be nice. goodnight all(:

Current song : Long distance - Bruno Mars. (Fits perfectly!)

come back soon, dearest one.

His Love.

Seriously, how adorable?

Haha. he seems to have thought alot about what to do this weekend. he came up with this as a suggestion but sadly, it'll not be a nice scene to be going around everywhere with painted nails during the Ramadhan. not that i paint my nails alot, but i just think its inappropriate. i had to politely decline his offer and come up with something else. highest possibility = ice skating/karaoke-ing. haha. i love to sing despite not having the voice of an angel. i wish!

& something to make up for my miserable night.

He tagged me in one of his post status and i accidentally removed it! aaarghhhh! i find ways to get it fixed but to no avail. totally mad at myself so i decided to send him a new post. im terribly sorry Dear. super sorry. and do take care of yourself in the err 'forest' aye? iloveyou.

Fighting!

HEY'ALL!

So let me see. its hard to admit, but im doing it anyways, so since the start of the holidays, ive been a miserable impoverish girl cos mum's not granting me any allowance until school starts which is a major 'UGH'. wait! i think i need to acknowledge everyone the presence/existence of Baking Life in my life now. haha, yeah thanks to my classmates who 'psycho-ed' me to start a virtual bakery. im so gonna miss you guys, E54N. havent had such a great bond for a semester, ever! ): ohh, my moment of agony.

Oh yes, so back to my pathetic school break. ive been religiously devoting my time in the mosque. repeat after me ; 'wvaah wvaah wvaah'. YES! helping out my neighbour and taking the time off to 'buat amalan yang baik di bulan yang mulia ini'. cheywaaah. im doing good, earning some money at the same time. SO. ITS. GOOD. AND. I. SHALL. NOT. COMPLAIN. AS. IF. IM. UNEMPLOYED.

On a lighter note, i can feel my tummy getting flatter! i dont know if its just me or IT IS ME?! but i do know, fasting and fatigue results to a harmonious sync. why? becos when youre feeling tired to wake up for breakfast, you'll fill your tummy with the lightest food you could reach just to get back to sleep, then when youre awake, you have no choice but to NOT eat cos youre fasting. either way round, you'll feel the guilt if you break the rule. (: so, my aim for this joyous month is to lose as much fats as possible. i hope it'll work.

In the mean time, im waiting for Sufi's call. such a pity. they had to 'run' after terawih. i dont really understand the term 'run' in their context but i hope he'll do well. like the Koreans qoute "fighting!", i shall slip in a good one and here goes, "FIGHTING, BABY!" or "BABY, FIGHTING!". i have no idea which is right. and i just sounded like a noob but whatever. HEHE!

and here's one for You.

& he makes me smile (:

short.

beautiful, beautiful, description of love. first love. very much related to mine(well except the last part, we're still very much in love), and im sure most of you. so click here to access.

currently reading these 2 books..

to destress myself. have been so caught up with too many unnecessary things. cant stop wondering when will be the day i would finally take the plunge to end certain issues. im mentally-tired (if there's such a word/phrase). somehow, blasting off all genre songs seems to work at times like this. ill get over things easy, so yeah .. Thank God.

guess what i cook for break-fast today?

BLACK PEPPER CRAB!

hehe okay im done! feeling a lil too dizzy, i need to get to bed.

toodles!

i still have a life.

i feel light-headed. my throat invites some sort of vomit-y feeling. all i need is a warm tight hug from the Boy. nothing measures up to the comfort he provides. but we do understand, national service commitments are beyond our control, and im kinda use to it, despite getting all cranky and whiny, i spare him the exaggerating details of my one-day-disease. im sure at the end of the week, we'll rekindle. dont get me wrong, we're not in some kind of argument(its been awhile since we last had one anyways), except being 'apart' kinda makes me feel .. distant. im here at home and he's there in camp. but fret not, he always took the liberty to remind me the importance of keeping the days as occupied as possible, with plusses to keep the calls and texts coming in. then i stopped to realise how grateful i am to have someone thinking of me too despite his busy schedule. i feel blessed, and i should just kept on going with my thoughts in his safe hands.

i miss reading novels. ive since returned my two borrowed books and have yet to look for new ones. one of the steps to keep myself occupied and also helped me to get rid of worthless thoughts.

next, ive been keeping up with the comedy series How I Met Your Mother. special gratitude to my classmate who was generous enough to share with me her collections. if in any case im outdated cos the show has been premiering for awhile, please do not underestimate. im just a tad slow from the rest aye(: but im sure getting alot of giggles from these episodes. very enlightening.

i havent been checking up with the FM's these days. since the dismissal of AM Jam by Ms Ven and Mr Yang, im kinda losing interest with the morning mayhem they used to came up with. trust me, i used to smile all to myself in the bus cos they can get that hilarious. now at the same time due to my diminishing curiousity, im losing the daily feeds and latest tunes. but if not for BlogLovin, i'd be lost completely. and the array of international blogs are keeping me inspired as well.

Your mind is working at its best when you’re being paranoid.

You explore every avenue and possibility of your situation

at high speed with total clarity.

-Banksy

i found this from Tumblr. tell me how far do you agree with this. if you ask me, i am agreeing to this with no extent at all. my mind works best when im paranoid, i can think of everything beyond anything. i would say 'fuck yeah' to this one, no doubt!

something just pisses me off. again, i shall take my leave. goodnight everyone.

truth.

"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn’t the world, it wasn’t the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, my cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don’t know, but it’s so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I’ve thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it."

Jonathan Safran-Foer; Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

Hello, again.

I miss blogging. it took me so long to update, my apologies. i have nothing to blog about actually, really. if you're wondering, Sufi and I are doing extremely great. we turned 23rd month yesterday. wow we've made this far. everything just falls into place. hopefully the days to come will be as good.

Im listening to Paramore, at the moment. Airplanes to be specific, brilliant song. reminds me of Shape Run which was held last Saturday night and ends only on Sunday afternoon. a good experience indeed, minus the fact that im the only sore loser trying really hard to stay up the whole night. there's one more coming up this weekend. yes, again. cant wait! and something has been planned out, highest possibility it'll work out(still hoping).

Im having butterflies in my stomach, right this second and i have no idea why. the sugar rush feeling? ive not chewed one in 3 days! nevermind, lets just pass that.

so everyone knows how much i love Tumblr right. the best option to OPT for if you have nothing better to do. there's a number of pictures which could REALLY brighten up my day. so yes, you guessed it, thats what i do in times of boredom-help. what else .. let me see. i bloghop. gives me the inspirations. i have a few links in my list whereby i browse through them almost everyday. you see, i have nothing better to do besides struggling to finish up my slides, which come to think of, they are not as difficult like anyone could ever imagine doing for class assignment. sorry, im contradicting.

But i guess one thing that will definitely spoil my day is having to mind the number of texts i sent out. because apparently, Starhub fails to see the fun size student im in and so i am only eligible to 500 sms per month, which will never be enough for me(at least). so there you go, ill be stuck with this plan for about 2 more years. dammit.

I have with me 2 books, im done with Dead Is The New Black, and the other is well .. a malay novel, but its too long winded, i want stories that will get me straight to the point, pretty dislike suspense. but i love surprises. CONTRADICTING AGAIN.

Before things get a tad too random and starts to confuse you readers, i better take my leave. i do appreciate it if you spend a lil more of your time to watch this. you'll end by leaving my blog with a smile.

ATTENTION :

POST WILL BE UPDATED TMR! STAY TUNE! :D SORRY FOR THE DELAY.

old dig ups.

extremely outdated peektures.

appreciate.

i am super full(ive come to a decision, to start being modest, and do not ever look down on KFC's Flaming Chilli hot devil drumlets, cos trust me they're extremely spicy, my lips burned. i am a strong nut, but i guess i have to give in sometimes.). i am having my period. my bottom is sore/achy, i have no idea why. i am seriously not in the mood for anything(now). i just wanna take a long nap. i want Baby's hug to relieve my pain. i want my girlfriends' laughter to perk me up.

but for now, ill just make do with whatever i have with me. simple things like..

• Durian Pancake from Baby.
• Goodie bags filled with lots of usable stuffs (pink bookmarks, pink pens, free samples..)
• applying hair moisturiser (i am a faithful user for Sunsilk Pink)
• trying to keep myself organized and prepared.
• feeling satisfied after attending religious class(:
• wearing my new geek specs.
• tumblring.
• looking forward to spending the weekend with Baby.
• met up with my girls, eventho it lasted less than a few hours.
• and finally, being thankful for everything i have now(:

look at the sky, what does it says?

POWER NAP!

high up in the sky..

i didnt know...

hot tea could make me feel happy..

cuddles like this..

cute images..

colourful nails.

my favourite actress..

including my favourite boy's voice, no less.

SLIPPER

tonight will be all about studying. but no guarantees cos i might just end up sleeping. seriously, where's my sense of urgency? priority has switched places with sleeping. im never sleep-deprived. never will. cos i can just sleep anytime. which reminds me of ..

extracted from Friendster. brings back wonderful memories. yes, icansleep anywhere anytime only IF im extremely sleepy. before, when Sufi & I first started 'dating', we love to take bus rides but i will end up sleeping. how boring can i get seriously? but really, i would. and he as usual, got a lil too generous with the 'shoulder sharing' for my sleep comfort. how nice ^^

but tonight, ive gotta try to sleep less. at least less-er. mum always warned me to not think of sleep all the time(cos i just do). Sufi calls me lazy(cos i will sleep after im done eating). Mai & Nard calls me the 'early sleeper'(cos i sleep before 12am and they dont). but what can i do? im born this way! okay, thats a lie. haha. i just like sleeping, i admit!

but first RJ.

question : If you are a sports fan of a particular sports team, relate how important the media is to you in terms of updating you about news of the team and the latest scores. If you are NOT a sports fan, relate if you feel that media plays an important role in delivering information today, or is it really just to sell "particular" messages that is done to evoke a reaction (i.e. purchasing) from you?

GO & DIE LA, SO HARDDDD.

back! part 1

i have finally managed to reconstruct my blog. not much of a difference, but yeah, its pretty tough with all the html shites. trust me.

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sorry ive been missing alot. i'll try to catch up with what i've missed. my life is boring. you have no idea how restless i am these days. nothing entice me to bring out the best in me. the chirpy side of me is possibly gone due to the monotonous routine im in.

i'll be back with more perky posts and pictures.

PROMISE!

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however, i am active on Tumblr.

so do visit for more updates. (: