up or down?

come Year 2, i will try to socialise more. be it with the malays, chinese, indians. ALL RACES, its non-limited. ive been too cooped up in my own world all this year. and that is bad. very bad. its on the top of the list. lets keep on track.

not being able to get in Touch, is very much disappointing. not that i was kicked out or not chosen, i just didnt go for the next training. me being me, was afraid of being mocked at for my low stamina. i mean, i have to agree. i really do have low, really very low stamina. i swear. & its wholly pathetic. i was the worst out of the worst during the trial. i cant even catch or fling a ball. IT IS THAT BAD. i ran, jump, fall flat on the the ground, the slowest. omg, i can go on & on about how bad my night was w/o ending. really. that's how very kental i was. -.-

i will try to lose weight. (if i have the chance to) God, this is hard & super unpredictable. i can stay on chart the first day, and totally disregard the next. i must stay consistent. this is the most important. have you ever experience having lots of successful plans layout the night before, so excited to accomplish it, but totally lose the idea the next day. frustrating much? yes.

i need to categorise my room items. this could come second, since im on holiday and free for most of the time, till maybe i start working(which im all charge up for). heh.

i need words of support & encouragement. im weak and a sucker when it comes to accomplishing different objectives align. yes, its a weakness. so wish me luck.

p/s : boo, im missing you already.

p/p/s : valentine's day update will come up soon. (tmr?)