Yours truly;

i want a glimpse of hope, that goes no other way than through my heart.

okay. i think my previous post looks exactly like a damn 500 words compo. damn, ive always hated compo. especially english. cos my language sucks. but anyhoos, i woke up late again today. i was actually strongly awaken by mum's "fini, wake up & take a look at yr bill, it seems like i have to confiscate yr fne fr a mth again since yr not cooperating" i went straight into sitting position, mum passed me the bill, rubbed my eyes & im like "NO! mum, look at it properly, my bill this mth didnt even reach $50, see, this includes my previous mth bill which errrr i forgot to pay (pathetic smile)". im like damn, how am i to pay this $100+ bill when i've only got $60 left (which i dont really wanna spend it for paying bills!). how silly can i be promising mum i'll pay for this mth's bill. now, i've to beg her again to pay the bill for me. hopefully she will.



i think im getting fatter. oh gosh. i have big fleshy thighs which could act as a tree for hundreds of monkeys to hang on to it. if soya were to see this, he'll goes - "you & yr paranoia. always getting so paranoid over yrself" haha. there's this once when i told him & nard i wna change & become someone who's very soft-spoken, he said - "you ARE already soft-spoken among the three girls. if yr gna talk like that im gna call you an irritant!" how sad. nyeahah. okay fine. but i really wna lose abit of weight. im wna grow tall. i wna lose the fats on my cheeks, arms & chin. & i wna grow fairer too(!). so yea, thats abt it. Z said, you need to exercise regularly, & check out yr diet. okay fine, he's in sports mgmt, he knows better. that friend, i wonder how's he doing now. (like as if, we havent met fr years, haha!)



im so not looking forward of going back to sch. my anticipation rate would be, let see, 2/10. i dnt know. i mean, the school's nice, the friends are cool but i hate it when my heart & mind is elsewhere. i just hope i could really do well for my Os & get transferred out. tho, i prefer staying at home studying than going anywhr.



oh, aunt just called. they are having kenduri at her house in yishun. well maybe i could meet sya after that(: