hello. my previous post was REALLY created by me. okay i know my language sucks. wtv.
i didnt attend school today. had medical appointment at ttsh. we waited 2 whole hours for a 2 minute consultation which cost us $27! as ridiculous as it may sound, that DID happen. but everything went well. there's nothing wrong with me so that's cool. when i was admitted exactly a month ago, part of my stomach was swollen & it could be the cause of gastric, but im fine now, so thats great. yea. i visited dad today & he seems fine. alhamdulillah[:
i didnt attend school today. had medical appointment at ttsh. we waited 2 whole hours for a 2 minute consultation which cost us $27! as ridiculous as it may sound, that DID happen. but everything went well. there's nothing wrong with me so that's cool. when i was admitted exactly a month ago, part of my stomach was swollen & it could be the cause of gastric, but im fine now, so thats great. yea. i visited dad today & he seems fine. alhamdulillah[:
im being selfish, dont you think? i mean, here i am thinking about someone who doesnt care about me at all when my family's suppose to be a big issue for me to think & handle. when can i ever wake up & be clear of the things that's going on around me? it seems like i've done lots for this family but no. i realised i did nothing. nothing at all. what i've ever gave them are continuous disappointments. call me a loser, cos i just suck. countless times i promised empty promises. i wanna change for the better but i can never fulfill it. i dont know why. am i just plain dumb or what. im beginning to hate myself. all the things that happen right now, i brought this upon, myself. i can never blame anyone else. blame me for being the ruthless daughter, & blame me for being the pester in your life.
im dwelling on stuffs & i hate it. i should learn to take control of my life in proper. & take things easy.
oh & last monday, met soya right after school. he wanted to get his chef's uniform at chinatown so off we went. & i swear we totally behaved like fucktard tourists. call ourselves singaporeans? shame on us! we've never been there so we had a hard time searching this 'sia huat' shop. we kinda played this 'zoom chinatown' game cos its kinda fun, you see. its like some amazing race kinda thing too, except we didnt have our big bags with us so... yea -.-! after merely few minutes, we got tired of searching & decided to ask around. & we've found it! & we err, actually high-fived & cheered like crazy? i mean like, getting over-excited playing this lame game? wth fini , soya. NONSENSE. haha. okay fine. after that we brought ourselves away from that unfamiliar place to a rather familiar one which is.. plaza sing! yes. had early dinner at kfc. on the way back, soya suggested that we walk all the way to city hall, which seems kinda far, but i agreed. so yes we went walking like drunkards. talking crap like we normally did. & we took pictures here. & kinda reminds us how close we were when we became 'ginas' once. haha!
remember anyone? those who were here with us before? im sure you do. mai & nard im reffering to you tits! oh & maybe the guys if yr reading this which I DOUBT SO.
okay! & off we went esplanade to chill. soya misses his brothers so much, he sang a song for them. got it recorded but cant upload it so maybe next time yea. & surprisingly there's lots of people on a plain monday. eh no, youth day whatttt. oh ya forgot. sorry, tk celebrate lerrr. ahah! banggeeee pur:p & finally head back around 8. so thats abt it. overall we had fun. walking, singing, laughing, headtugging & most of all crrrraaaapppiinngg.
im up to something...... good, goofs. but im not sure if it ever gonna work out tho. still, i'll give my best. hopefully, it'll turn out great[:
im off. school's tmr. 8 till 5 ?! one word. A-HOLE!
the oc! at 12!
updated: 09.07.08 , 1125pm.
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