Yours truly;

some people say -

"ahh, teenage love? its nothing. its heartbreaking, but only for a little while. just go, find someone else. its easy you know."

ahah! you got it wrong. stop calling this puppy love. cos its obviously not! try putting yrself in my shoes. you'll find yrself weeping to sleep every single night. & it has a continuation too. there's a saying - when you miss someone, you'll dream of him. true enough. & when that happens, its all back to reality. you'll crouch alone at a corner, wondering why-does-this have-to-happen-to-me kinda thing, wishing things would go how you want it to ( but it never did, true? ) hah. there's just one word to explain this. STOOOOPID. okay guys tell me something. why do girls get so emotional when situation gets too rocky? because we have feelings, balls. i mean quit playing games. its cruel, you see. landing someone into trouble. making em cry. & you feel nothing at all. NOTHING. heartless isnt it. you're doing this with no mercy. mama once said - everything that happens, has a reason behind it. but what is it? only God knows. but i want to know it too! patience is the key. but how long more? its been 8 long days baby. no call, no text. nothing. are you happy w your life now? no more disturbances. relaxation is what you want. but i dont feel relaxed. like never in these days. im so tensed. if there's anything that i can wish for - i want time to turn. such as ; when we, the family grouped together to watch teevee. when we, the babies (mai,nard & soya) crapped on the phone till early morning. when me & you, share our thoughts, feelings, laughter, & love. ooh, there's something i wna pop too. honey, i know everyone have their own lives. but this involves mine too. i need to know something too right. i cant let myself stay in the dark forever. just like what ive always stated, im just a miserable girl. i AM taking this matter maturely & not personally. & that is why i still survive, till today.

suhaili says im getting slimmer. like what the tooot. haha. really? am i? iloveyougirllll.